#whats happining

[lotus-pear]

WAS NO ONE GOING TO TELL ME THAT ALIEN STAGE WAS NOT JUST DOOMED YURI, BUT ALSO DOOMED YAOI?

[tapparell-a]

Marlene McKinnon was supposed to be born a boy.

Nobody in his family hid it. How was it done? A male in his family was needed. Whenever any manual labor was mentioned: "Marlene, cmon, I know you can go to the cellar. Don't be a pussy, it's not dangerous. Please bring daddy the screwdriver." The look. Those eyes that penetrated under the skin asking if she was enough, if she was something more than a idiot six years old girl. "Did you hear me? Marlene! What the fuck are you doing? Are you fucking crying?".

She was useless.

She didn't matter.

All she cared about was avoiding his gaze.

All she wanted was to make her father proud.

She wore her first skirt on her first day at Hogwarts. She was bothered by the difficulty in sitting comfortably, preventing her from running normally. In her dorm she met Mary, Lily. They were so comfortable in their clothes, in their body.

"Hi, i'm Lily."

"Pleasure, McKinnon."

They knew who they are.

She didn't.

First detention, McGonagall' office. She had to wear the girl's uniform and return the stolen pants to Mr Pettigrew. No, it did't matter if he lost a wager.

Why she were like this? She didn't understood her emotions.

One day Mary found her in the prefects' bathroom, crying.

"Marls, are you here?"

"Sorry, i tought it was empty"

"Nope, i always come here. I can't stand the gost in our bathroom, she's so critical about my makeup."

Mary was a beatiful girl, with and without makeup.

"Why are you crying?"

"i don't know. It just feel... Wrong. I feel wrong"

Marlene spent a lot of years trying to understand who she was, scared for how her father would react.

One day (maybe in the 5th year?) she got that.

She? They were nonbinary.

[annmarcus63]

Jaskier never imagined that there could be another Geralt out there, much less another universe with unique yet similar problems. Nor did he imagine that, inexplicably and suddenly, his heart would feel so hungry for someone he had barely met four weeks earlier. Sure, Jaskier tended to fall in love within hours with whoever caught his attention, be it man, elf, woman, dwarf.... Jaskier has always loved freely without worrying about the consequences. But this famine was different, one that wants to swallow everything in one gulp. One that yearns for BeardGeralt. For days he tried to convince himself that it was pure lust, then he tried to convince himself that it was some sort of defense mechanism. So many years in love with Geralt have weighed heavily on him, perhaps what he feels for BeardGeralt is a convenient way out for his treacherous heart. In reality he suspects that he is only trying to deceive himself, after all he is the one who knows his heart best and knows very well that what he feels is real. As real as falling in love with the alter ego of the one who is supposed to be half of your soul. Which makes you feel futilely guilty. And it's certainly not fair, having to deal with how good BeardGeralt is. He's certainly something out of this world, ha. Two witchers and a bard traveling are a very picturesque image. Having only one horse, they take turns riding but BeardGeralt always offers him his place by claiming to have a lot of energy. In the evenings BeardGeralt always makes sure to give Jaskier a larger portion of food. Every time Jaskier looks up, he finds him watching him with a certain satisfaction of one who enjoys caring. The problem is that Geralt notices these gestures and Jaskier feels like garbage when he notices that the witcher is not comfortable. The bard fears that Geralt thinks of himself as insufficient. But, on the other hand, it's nice to have someone looking out for him for a change, to have someone make him feel loved.  

"Cold?" asks BeardGeralt one night of heavy rain when the three of them have taken shelter against the wall of some abandoned ruins. 

"I've been worse" and then he feels a hand running across his lower back and resting on his hip. Her breath catches. With a swift movement BeardGeralt brings him against his shoulder. Jaskier smiles sincerely pleased and looks at BeardGeralt out of the corner of his eye. Geralt, his Geralt tenses at his side, clearly not knowing what to make of the situation. He’s confused, but he knows he has no right to question Jaskier's relationships. He never has, but somehow this time feels different. It’s strange, Jaskier can admit that. But it feels right, Jaskier thinks guiltily. 

Jaskier has stolen a familiar-looking collection of poems from a rather rude merchant, to discover that it was an elvish collection of poems that her nanny used to read to him. He tells this story, as is his custom, in great detail. BeardGeralt listens intently and jokes playfully about his nostalgia. At some point in the conversation Geralt interferes to tell them that they should sleep. 

One evening Jaskier is tending his lute while Geralt prepares the fire while BeardGeralt is out hunting for food. 

"He will leave, Jask. You should be careful," Geralt advises him, almost whispering. At first Jaskier has a hard time understanding what they are talking about, but once he does a series of emotions run through the pit of his stomach. Sadness, anger, indignation, gratitude, sympathy and finally resignation. Jaskier is no friend of resignation.  

"I know." answers Jaskier with the certainty of one who knows he will lose something he did not know he possessed.  

So what if fate is right? So what if Geralt is his soulmate but they have met many years before? So what if his Geralt is not ready? So what if BeardGeralt is ready and more than willing to try something with him? So what if fate made a mistake? So what if BeardGeralt is here for a reason? So what if none of that matters because in the end, no matter what, Jaskier is going to get hurt? 

Kaer Morhen is getting closer every day, there BeardGeralt's Ciri will be waiting for them.

One thing Jaskier knows with futile certainty is that no Geralt would choose him.

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Game Geralt x series Jaskier

Here's the first part

Thanks to fandom-trash-and-hyperfixations for their awesome ideas on this. love u.

What do you mean? of course there will be a culmination of this trashy angst/romance so stay tuned!

[nyxstherapy]

headcanon if you're a little too happy at the moment:

at hogwarts, barty once left dorcas alone at a party with marlene, and that's how marlene and dorcas fell in love. a few months later, dorcas got barty to confess his feelings to evan and then they started dating

barty was in the group of death eaters who killed the mckinnon family

dorcas was in the group with moody when he killed evan

they both helped with the start and end of the other's love

[the-four-of-them-au]

Oh shit is everyone okay

[jarognieva]

When random lady during a walk says you're the prettiest dog in the world and you have "wise eyes"

[the-crow-binary]

Just bought my plane tickets!! I'm going to my mom next tuesday!! I'm so stressed out because i hate traveling, especially in plane lol, but I'm still so happy to have the opportunity!! I can't wait to see her, and my dad 🥺

[justfriendsbestthings]

Fascinated by how his necklace floats down his collarbones

[strzygon-x]

so can anyone tell me at what age do you start to feel happy?

[palaceoftears]

Rewatched the last Fatma scenes some days ago and I can't stop thinking of what would've Mahi told her after she lost her baby & attacked Ayse. Idk I feel sad that such opportunity to see what Mahi thinks of her s1 actions on s3 & how this makes her bond with Fatma was thrown away so easily. Pretty much like her miscarriage was never ever touched again during the series and this was a chance for her mature self to talk about it? Still even when we didn't get to see it, I think the way she wanted to handle Fatma's situation it's admirable and like one of the few cases when a concubine's mental health it's taken into consideration. Maybe that's what she feels would've helped her back on s1 (and she did experience how taking distance stopped her of being absorbed by palace stuff) and that's why she acts like that.

[hassethi]

SHUT UP SHUT UP I CAN'T BELIVE IT'S REAL HAVSGABHSBS EVE CREATED SONG FOR HYPMIC??? HE'S LITERALLY MY FAV ARTIST AND I LOVE HYPMIC AAA I'M SO HAPPY

ALSO THIS SONG IS SO GOOD

[thedragonagelesbian]

their gut reaction to trying to concretely conceptualize the steps necessary to achieve their idealized, abstracted future away from the crows is 'guess i'll unalive myself' but damn if their eyes arent full of hope anyway

[cannibalismyuri]

something about the fact that el has been bought up with such exclusive ideas about good / bad people irks me because she's literally using entirely objective terminology (re: monster / superhero) for the two ends of her morality spectrum, and that fails to take into account the extreme grey area between the implications of those two terms. and humans as a whole cannot be monsters or superheroes and if she views herself as either one or another and cant accept herself as both or neither, that means she's been bought up with a distinct lack of association of sense of self with humanity. do you guys ever think about that?

[weirdkidshere]

Did you think I'd just stick with ONE fandom?? THINK AGAIN!

[early-october-skies]

Me when we don't speak anymore by bears in trees

[thelien-in-bg3]

Just realized that the reason I hate combat so much in BG3 is that all my games are set too difficult because I clicked as fast as possible EVERY TIME when choosing how DIFFICULT MY GAME SHOULD BE!!!!!!!!!!